Sunday, October 24, 2010


i gave up a lot to be a stay at home mom.but i'm not complaining.i'm grateful to be given such an opportunity.i love doing the school run in the morning and fetching mia from school listening to her never ending stories.

but when i quit my job,i discovered that i have a passion for cooking and baking.before i got married,i was not even trusted to cook rice.and now mia's daddy is giving me an opportunity to do a diploma in french patisserie.i'm not sure whether i should take it.all this while i've been studying law (and i still love reading up law books until now..hence subjecting myself to ICSA torture).but can a legally trained mind switch to cooking?

i guess the fear stems from watching gordon ramsay on tv.what if while learning french cooking i get scolded by chefs just like mr ramsay?i don't think i can take the amount of "F" bombs apparently uttered in kitchens.but at the same time i'm so inspired by julia child.she did it when she was already married.

shall i take the plunge?

Thursday, October 14, 2010


last saturday,i went to pasar with my walid.i like to drag my walid along so he can haggle the price for me and he will happily offer to carry my purchase.since i buy lots of seafood,the fish man has given me his business card so that i can call advance for various types of seafood that i want.

as i waited for my fish to be scaled and chopped into pieces or fillet,i stood in front of the fish old man wearing "kopiah"(is this how u spell it?) came closer towards me.out of the corner of my eye i could see that he was looking at me up and down.loudly he said,"oi boleh tepi sikit ka?sibuk asyik berdiri depan ikan sampai tak boleh orang pilih ikan!".i was so annoyed and so i said,"firstly,pak cik,saya orang melayu.secondly pakcik,kalau saya orang cina ke,orang kadazan ke,orang iban ke,pakcik kena cakap baik baik dengan saya".he was so shocked he quickly selected his fish and apologised to me.

i was wearing long leggings and t-shirt.i think i was appropriately dressed for pasar.besides i was standing next to my walid.thank god,he's a bit hard on hearing,if not i'm sure he would be upset with that pakcik.if an old man found it hard to communicate nicely to other  people be it of the same race or not,what kind of message is he sending to the younger generation.and if the younger generation refuse to listen to the elders or speak politely,why do we blame their teachers?education starts at home.

so much for 1 malaysia.sigh..

Tuesday, October 12, 2010


my favourite picture of mia and 2008.celebrating mia's birthday in our favourite restaurant telawi street bistro which has now closed down.

my favourite picture of mia and her cik baby (my little sister)..they really enjoy attending baking classes little sister,rania said she did most of the measuring and baking because mia was just busy eating the cookies.

in gold coast with her only cousin from her daddy's side.

this was taken when she was 2 years old,attending her auntie's wedding in was so easy to dress her up as i please at this point of time.she's very fussy now when it comes to party frocks..not too dressy,not too frilly,not too puffy,must not be itchy and the list goes on.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

italy winter 2010

we are going to italy this winter.initially thought we should book greece since mia is studying greek civilisation in history class for year 4 but decided we shall educate her in roman civilisation instead.we are going to be in italy for 2 weeks starting in rome and then drive to florence,pisa,verona,venice and back to rome again.wish i can squeeze in milan too for shopping but i think we'll be very tired after venice as it is.

but this time around,we are bringing my mom and my little sister so this will be very interesting wants to see gondola but not to ride on one..mmm..very odd.but it looks like we will be eating lots and lots of pasta,seafood and margherita pizza.where can i find halal restaurants in venice?i'm sure in rome there will be plenty.

hope the little kiddies will appreciate what we are doing to educate them.they will see loads of painting and visit lots of ruins.i look forward to see vatican city.but most of all i look forward to pay homage to my best friends mr fendi,ms prada and mr versace!ha..ha..that goes my credit card!

Friday, October 1, 2010


dear rayyan,
i had a dream about you last my dream, we were in the kitchen chopping salad and mixing it with tuna,just the way we both like it.and in my dream,i heard your maids sighing watching us while they were busy preparing our snacks.we were so young and so in love.

sometimes rayyan,i sit down and think of you.imagining that you are somewhere in san francisco,sitting at your desk and thinking of me too right at that moment.someone once told me that if you are thinking of someone,that person is thinking of you too.i don't know whether this is true.

i wonder how your siblings are.whether basim has grown taller than you and whether haifa is as beautiful as ever.i'm sure they are.i think about your mom and your dad too.i hope your mom has found a suitable saudi bride for you.someone better than me.someone who will make you happy and a good enough reason for you to return home.sometimes i imagine what it would be like for you to have your own children.

but most of all,rayyan,i sometimes wish that i am the one standing beside you as the mother of your children and the love of your life.