when u were 3 years old,i would give you exercise books for u to playfully write letters and numbers.it was so much fun then watching u trying so hard to copy my handwriting with your little chubby fingers.oh how i love your chubby fingers.i used to kiss them one by one every night after i came back from work.
but then i slowly realised that no matter how hard u tried u could not copy the numbers i wrote for u.strangely all the numbers were upside down with the exception of 8.i was worried when u started to write 10 as 01 and so on.i quit my job and decided to take care of u full time.i sent u to be tutored by an expert and u slowly caught up but there were times when u forgot to write them properly thus making silly mistake is common for u.
over the years i saw u attempting to do simple math.but u found it so difficult to even do simple addition.i knew something was not right.that u are different than other children.i felt that there is this invisible barrier between u and mathematics.u just can't seem to go over the barrier.
by then i realised if i were to send u to local school,u will be 'lost' in the class of at least 40 kids.i was afraid the teacher might not be able to teach u effectively.i decided that u must go to an international school.i chose one with only 15 kids in 1 class.with this i hope u will be able to cope with numeracy exercise and pick up the skills which are required out of u.at the same time i taught u at home.
one of the funniest memories i had was teaching u fractions.i told u if i were to cut a cake into 2 for u and i to eat,what is the fraction of the cake.u told me 'mummy,if i were to have a cake why would i want to cut into 2?let's just eat together sharing 1 spoon!'.
now u are in year 4.i see u are struggling with numeracy.the other subjects u manage to get 90% and above but with numeracy u consistently get low marks or fail.a lovely lady who blogs as kak d of pause to reflect blog gave me a wonderful insight of how your brain works.she suspected that u have dyscalculia.
what is dyscalculia u might ask.according to wikipedia, Dyscalculia or math disability is a specific learning disability or difficulty involving innate difficulty in learning or comprehending mathematics. It is akin to dyslexia and can include confusion about math symbols. Dyscalculia can also occur as the result of some types of brain injury.
there are so many symptoms which i knew in my heart of hearts u have been displaying since u were little.the symptoms u display are as follows:
what shall i do to help u mia?i am feeling defeated lately.it's very hard to teach u on my own because frankly sometimes i feel like screaming when u can't seem to grasp numeracy.u are not less clever than any other kid out there.u are so smart in language based subjects.your french teacher loves u to bits since u are the only one who would speak to him in french after just 4 years of learning the subject.there are not many books in malaysia for me to read on dyscalculia.how best can i beat that barrier that's holding u back in numeracy?
i love u mia.u are my life and my soul.and we have a bond that no one can break or come in between.
can we beat this learning disability together?